Strength and Tranquility

Two things that I need:
Strength and tranquility

Weekend's update

Time really flies - as what PPP (my fren) always says - especially during weekends. I don't really have much free time during weekdays so I usually plan a lot of activities, academically and non-academically, for myself during the weekend. Just like most of the students, non-academic activities always come b4 the academic ones. So I ended up having a huge pile of notes which havent be read, a large heap of assignments which need to be done, n bla bla bla~

Btw, today is my friend's bday. I hope he will have a good bday and have a great and fulfilling year ahead!

Well, I gonna start doing the 'academic acitivities' d. Ta~

A quote

'You may be just an ordinary individual, however, you certainly possess an extraordinary skill ie. you have control over what you think, what you say, and what you do.'

So,

dare to dream;
dare to fail;
and after u failed,
dare to try it again!

=)

Shall we dance?

Nice remix version of Fa Ru Xue

What I hope, What I want and What I've got

Hou Sum Hou Bou

Hao Hao Lian Ai

=)

Making Memories of Us

I'm gonna be here for you baby
I'll be a man of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild beast swarm

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

I wanna honor your mother
I wanna learn from your pa
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw
I wanna stand out in a crowd for you
A man among men
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way

I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
And I'm gonna make you this promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss
Yes I am

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us
I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you baby
And I'll win your trust making memories of us
Mmhm ooooooooooo oh baby mmmm

Love

“Love is being stupid together.” - Paul Valery

I have to agree with Mr Valery because some lovebirds are really capable of doing silly things for their love ones most of the time in their relationship. However, there must be reasons why ppl can be 'stupid' when they are in love. It is hard to understand those reasons completely until you get to experience it yourself. And to be perfectly, absolutely, totally frank with you, if you are not stupid in your relationship for even once, i don't think you are not in a relationship.

“There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from.” —Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

So, hopefully everyone can learn sth from their 'stupidity'.

=P

Wake up from dreams~

“The first step in making your dreams come true is to wake up.” - Paul Valery

Take it easy

Take it easy
take it easy
take it easy

One thing that I need desperately now...

Rest

Eating Ais Kacang...

Being encouraged by friends when i was feeling down is like eating a big bowl of colourful, brain-freezing ais kacang in a hot afternoon.

"May God always bless u, if you believe in Him."

(Ya i do believe in God and i hope you will be blessed too. =) )

I am much chilled out now, thanks!

chang di tou

Pu gong ying (Dandelion)

Happy Deepavali

Happy Deepavali to all my Indian friends and to those who celebrate this festival.

May all of you be blessed with the best in your life!

B'day

While I was randomly browsing through ppl's blogs, I read a post which was about the blogger's bday celebration with friends and family. Wah~ How nice!

Suddenly I realised that the last birthday celebration I had with my family was 5 years ago (haha i m not telling you which bday was it coz my age is a secret! =P).....

When is the next time i gonna have my bday celebration with my family?

My heart seems to get nearer to my family as I am further away from home.

Tired

V tired~
I cant wait for Wednesday to come~

My wish list:
A good slp
Another good slp
and
MORE GOOD SLPS!!!

Rainbow

Cowboy on the run!!!

Vegetarian Dinner

What I like in the morning...

1. Make myself a cup of strong coffee and then sip it slowly as if the time moves at 50% of its usual speed.




2. Have 2 or 4 slices of toast together with the coffee.





3. Listen to one of my favourite songs (eg. 'Little Lovesong' by SodaGreen).





4. Look at the clear blue sky from the window.





5. ENJOY THE MORNING!





Photo taken on 30/10/07 at 8.01 am during my breakfast and while the song 'Little Lovesong' was being played from my laptop.

Soft hearted

I was chatting with a housemate after our dinners this evening. In the middle of our conversation, she said that I am too soft hearted when dealing with ppl.

I am in my room now and thinking about her comment on me about me being too soft hearted. Suddenly i remembered sth which was mentioned by my lecturer in one of his pathology lectures. He said when the heart starts to die, it will start to become soft too.

Will soft-hearted ppl have hearts which can die easily?

Haha.... i am a medical student n maybe i should stop writing these craps and start living like a medical student. Study, study and study coz i can never study enough.

Ready to go again

I have been slacking too much and too long.

I have been wandering directionless all the time.

So,

it's time to start getting back to the original tract again.

it's time to start working hard to achieve the goals in my life.

it's time to start being the real me again.

"Gentleman, start your engine..."

=)

Random Reminiscence

Memories are the best pictures in our life...

Enjoy or endure?

I think it is very interesting to read ppl's msn display msg. There was a fren who put up a msg like this:

Life - to enjoy or to endure?

A hedonist will prefer to enjoy it and say sth like this:
"Enjoy la of coz~"

An individual who is persevering enough to face the challenge in life will try to endure the hardship.
"No pain no gain ma~ OUCH~~"

A simple-minded person will think this is too complicated and suggest an answer like this:
"Who cares la? Life is simple, that's it."

A complex-minded person will try to analyse the situation n in the end complicates the complicated situation even more by asking this:
"Erm.... well... it depends how u define 'enjoy' and 'endure'. It oso depends how much u wanna enjoy and how much u can endure. Some ppl can enjoy their life with slightest amount of joys but some ppl cant.... "

A blur person might ask:
"Can some1 tell me what is the difference between 'enjoy' and 'endure'? Why asking this question ler? Oh ya... why i ask this question ar?"

An optimist will smile and say,
"I am happy no matter how much i need to endure the hardship in my life."

And a pessimist will frown and say,
"I am sad no matter how much i can enjoy in my life."

So what do u think about enjoying life and enduring hardship?

Live your life

Death isn't sad.
The saddest thing is most people don't live their life at all.

So come on, live your life, even when it is at the deepest trough.

S.D.L

S.D.L = Sleepy Dizzy Lazy

Yahoo!

I was randomly browsing thru Yahoo! homepage and i read a sentence which goes like this:

Fake yourself into happiness, fake it until you make it.

?

"An unpleasant sensation associated with real or potential tissue damage on the viscus under the 5th intercostal space at the mid clavicular line

I HATE THIS!!!

I really dun understand this:

Is it because i m understanding so ppl can do watever they want even that will upset me?

Or even worse, why do i have to sacrifice for some1 who cant show the same level of understanding?

I try to rationalise things, but why cant the other do the same?

I try to be nice to ppl without hoping to be reciprocated, but this doesnt mean i am alright to be hurt!!!!

Am i a petty person? I think i m. But if it takes so much to be a 'generous' man, i would rather to be a happy selfish person.

I think i m at my limit now already... I m pretty sure i m...

4 lines

I am not quite happy at the moment.
I am just wondering what do i actually want, what do i actually need.

If u dun know wat do i mean, it is alright.
If u do know, i will be surprised.

Happiness

Recently, a friend put up a sentence as her msn display msg: Good days give you happiness.

I am stressed. I am trying my best to stay positive all the time so i can live everyday with a smile. I try my best to make every day of mine a good day. I just wanna to be happy.

I just read a blog's comment. It says, 'instead of trying to be happy, why not try to be passionate in doing everything in your life?'

Yeah, no wonder my 'good days' don't guarantee me happiness, because i have lost my passion in doing things in my daily life.

Sien~ I hate being a negative homo sapiens.

Tired but inspired

For the past 2 years i always wondered how come i nvr felt like a medical student even i was already 1. I felt as if i was just like a college boy who went for lectures, did assignments, went out to lepak sometimes, etc etc. I did have opportunities to go for attachments for a few times but it was insufficient to give me the feel for being a medic boy.

Finally, i m now at the start of my clinical years. I was really really excited about this as i could finally go to the hospital with my sthetoscope and OHCM in the pockets of my white coat. More importantly, i can finally have more contact with the patients and be able to learn stuff from the clinical staffs.

However, life is not just about excitements. I did have a tough period to adjust my life from a pre clinical year medic to a clinical year's one. I have to wake up early, hop on to a bus in a slpy state with half opened eyes, go for tutorials, take patients' medical histories, perform physical examinations and bla bla bla. There are so many things can be done in the hospital but i think i m always lack of energy to sustain my enthusiasm to learn those stuff.

I m really really tired but i m also very very inspired by the stuff that i learnt in the placements. I shall have more rest to continue my learning journey in the coming days.

Gonna take a shower now n have an early night! Ta~

Today's horoscope

Just read the today's horoscope section of yahoo! which is about the capricorn:

Your enthusiasm can make things happen. Don't keep all that power to yourself.

N.B. in life

To me, life is like a book. This book was written since the day we were created as a zygote, and it will be concluded when our life ends. In different chapters, there are various remarks made by ppl around us. These remarks are like the 'N.B. points', which means points that need to be noted well.

Here are some of the 'N.B. points' which are recorded in my 'book' so far:

'We learn from our experience, whether it is a good or bad one.'

'Everything seems to be better in the morning.'

'You will be alright soon, don't worry.'

'When you cant deal with many problems at one time, then tackle them one by one.'

'Don't dwell and think too much about your problems'

'Everyday is a happy day!'

'Everything happens for a reason.'

'Obstacles in our life are the tests given by the God. Those tests are given to us to make us stronger and more resilient.'

'To end a sentence the fullstop is needed. In the same way, stop the germination of negative thoughts by applying the brakes of positive thoughts.'

'Smile for ppl who love you and most importantly, smile for yourself.'

'ALWAYS REMEMBER TO FORGET THINGS THAT MAKE YOU SAD but NEVER FORGET TO REMEMBER THINGS THAT MAKE YOU GLAD.'

So, have you got anything that u think you can 'N.B.' my book? If yes, you are most welcomed to do so.

Stay positive, be happy and KEEP SMILING! =)

Numbed

...

Busy? or Lazy?

I just realised i havent been reading the paper nicely since the day i came back to Cardiff. It is kind of rare that i, a person who still read paper everyday even in exam period, could actually forgo the pleasure of reading the paper for the past 1 week.

Am i too busy? or m i just being so lazy that i just feel like slpin as much as possible whenever i m free?

I dunnoe.

Shine

This afternoon i just got a song from SL. It is quite an inspiring song!

Artist: Vanessa Amorosi
Title: Shine

You say that you never had a mum
And nobody needs you
So cry, so cry
You believe that life rolls by
Just to deceive you
By your time, by your time
You're getting old
And the longer you take
The slower your pain will grow
It will grow, it will grow
You can close your eyes
And hope that when you open them
You've got a brand new life
Do you find, you can't hide?


You can give your life
You can lose your soul
You can bang your head
Or you can drown in hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to shine


Grow up and make the best of what you've got
Of what you've got,
Of what you've got
The days are going by and you're sittin' on your arse
And you're wondering why, why, why, yeah


You can give your life, or
You can lose your soul
You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to shine

You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to shine

You say that you never had a mum
And nobody needs you
So cry, so cry, so cry
You believe that life rolls by just to deceive you
By your time, well by your time
Your getting old
And the longer you take the slower you'll pain will grow
It'll grow, it'll grow
You can close your eyes
And hope that when you open them
You've got a brand new life

You can give your life or
You can lose your soul
You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to shine

You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Well look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to shine

Don't don't, don't don't you do it

Yeah, so let's shine!

Trying to catch my breath

The journey for Year 3 MBBCh has already begun. While still wondering what lies ahead of this journey, I already find that it is quite hard to pace myself on this 'highway'. Will things get more complex? Or will they become a lot easier after I have found the correct ways of learning them?

Well, i m now just taking a short break and trying to catch a lil breath before continuing my journey.

Alright, time to get my feet to move again. 'Left, right, left, right...'

Being a professional

My new term started with the Professional Awareness and Development Day. During this session, my colleagues and I were given some talks regarding professionalism in health care sector by speakers from various healthcare departments and organisations.

I was very inspired by a sentence mentioned by one of the speakers, who is also a consultant physician, during her speech:

"A professional is a person who can give his/her best (even) when feeling the worst."

I shall bear this in my mind.

My New 'Nest'

Welcome to Flat 3!

Here's the main corridor of this apartment, i m staying in the room to the left of the door with pink walls.

Tada~~My room's door.

It looks a bit messy...

U can c my desk n part of my bed.

My window's view. Not v interesting.

Desk picture 1

Desk picture 2

My bed.

Bathroom

Kitchen picture 1

Kitchen picture 2

An ending which marks a beginning

In less than 1 week’s time, my Year 2 summer break is going to end.

Time has a pair of ‘invisible wings’. It can really fly without one’s knowledge. And it flew extraordinarily fast while I was enjoying my holidays. I can still remember clearly how I packed my luggage right after my last paper and now I already packed my luggage, ready to go back to Cardiff to start my Year 3 course. It is the same luggage with a total weight of 20 KGS. The only difference is that when I came back from UK it carried 20 KGS of joys but now it carries 20 KGS of unwillingness to leave home.

I just sent an sms to a fren who is leaving for UK tmr. I told her that I was feeling quite down coz I couldn’t bear to leave my house. It’s such a short yet meaningful hol. I really really couldn’t bear to say bye to Malaysia.

‘My strategy is: don’t think (too much) and don’t dwell (too much),’ she said.

I think what she said is right. Life isn’t stagnant. I should always move on and look forward to the challenge ahead. No pain, no gain.

My sis also noticed that I was quite down and couldn’t bear to leave home again. So she said this to me, ‘1 year will pass very fast one. I can’t even cover everything that is ought to be learnt in Form 4 even though I have a year’s time.’

Haha~ I guess this is what we call ‘innocent’.

Then my dad also encouraged me by saying that I will finish everything in 3 yrs’ time. So I argued that I have only done 2 years so far, I did not even reach the mid point of the course.

“Be optimistic, don’t be so pessimistic, young man.”

“Yes, (old man) pa.” (It’s a bit rude to call my dad ‘old man’ but I guess it is alright since he called me ‘young man’. He is older ma. =P)

Alright, time to get ready for new challenge in the coming 1 year. I will do my best to change what I can and accept what I can’t. More importantly, I shall give my best shot in everything and let the nature takes its course. Sometimes, certain things just can’t be forced to happen.

Gambate~!!! Good bye, Malaysia. I will be back soon~~~ hehehe~~~

one half for each (yi ren yi ban)

It's a simple song with simple lyrics and simple tune.

I just simply love this simple song.

Hope you will enjoy it as how i do. =)

An addition to my 4F's to-do list

I forgot 1 very important element of holiday, ie. FOTO (photographs).

Alright, here are some of the pics i took during my hol so far:

Random

This is yet another random entry of this blog.

I am now:

a lil bit tired
having a slight headache
looking for some info on the internet
feeling a bit blue-ish

Suddenly i remember a sentence tat a schmate always said last time:

Life is short, don't make it even shorter.

This is yet another short random entry of my blog.

Things to be done in Summer break

I m not a very organised person as i dun usually create a to-do list b4 i carry out any tasks. However, I remember when i was sitting for my final exams b4 the summer hol started, I roughly created a to-do list for my summer hol. It's not a very strict list. It contains no deadlines but only things that i needa do during the hol.

Here's the list:

1. Food (wanna spend as much time as possible to try as much food as possible regardless my stomach is full or empty. Haha..sounds a bit unhealthy. =P)

2. Friends (wanna meet as many frens as possible, whether they are my primary, sec, college, uni. coursemates, or simply ppl who know me. I havent met many of my frens since i came back coz many of them are working and i m oso lack of initiative to ask them out. Wei Kang ar.. u must b more hardworking. :P)

3. Family (wanna chat with my family. So far i think i have chatted quite a lot with my mama but not my dad n siblings. Shud find time to talk to the them as well. )

4. Fun (After having a long stressful period in Cardiff, i think it's now the time to unwind a lil bit. Went for 2 trips d, but i still feel like goin for another few more. )

That's about my 4 F's to-do list. It reminds me of the movie Fantastic 4. I loved this movie when i watched them last time. F4- 2 is nice but i still prefer the 1st one.

Hopefully i can enjoy my 10-wk-summer hol. Still left 8 more wks onli. Must try to enjoy the remaining hol. =)

My Summer Break

Just a quick update of my summer hol so far:

- Went to Genting 3D2N: A cool outing at Genting which allowed me to stay away from the typical hot weather of my beloved country. It was an enjoyable trip. Went to theme park and got to try out the expensive food in Genting. Ah~ I m missin its weather now.

- Went to Singapore 1D: To be exact, i went to Sentosa Island. Tried some cool games and of course i went to the Underwater World. I was soaked in Singapore's sea water for the 1st time, n it is just as salty as Malaysia's sea water.

- Went for a badminton game with some sec sch frens: every1 is still the same. Sweated a lot and had a good time with old sch mates. Aww... i miss the good old times...

Tat's all for now. Will try to plan more outings for myself in the remaining hol.

Ta~

Back in msia!

After 9 mths' stay in the UK, after 13 hrs flight fr london to singapore, I m home finally!!!

I m still quite exhausted now as the flight back home was a long n tiring one. Din get much slp during the flight. However, the trip was an enjoyable one coz the meals were nice and i got to watch quite a few movies which were all v nice too!

I m still having a bit jet lag. Slp in the day n be active at night. haha~

Things are still pretty much the same here. Weather is still forever warm. Food is still nice but the price is quite high.

Got to drive again after being a passenger and pedestrian for almost a year in the UK. haha~~

Currently i dun hav any plans in this summer break yet. I think all i want to do in this summer is just to sit back n relax! haha~~

Happy hol, folks!!!

Will c u all soon~

Last day...

After having the last paper of my final exam, the Year 2 academic year has officially come to an end. The papers were tough. And if you know me well, even for tough papers, my usual response would be 'Ok ok la...'. So this time I actually said those papers were tough, u shud b able to gauge the level of difficulties. Since i had done my best, I will just hope for the best, even i know tat my results wun b the best. (fingers crossed)

Today is also the last day i m staying in Colum 9. I m happy coz i m goin home 2mr but at the same time i m feeling a bit down becoz i m leavin the place where i had lotsa fun with my fellow columates.
We cooked together, mamak-ed together, lepak-ed in the kitchen after meals together, etc etc.

We went for picnics, ran out of the house when the fire alarm rang, celebrated bdays, CNY celebration, called the security officers to switch on the main electricity switch when it was tripped, etc etc.

I definitely will miss the Columates.

Also, I m gonna miss my room. My room number is 4 this year. It sounds a bit unlucky for the chinese but 4 is kinda like my lucky number so i was actually quite happy when i knew tat i got Room 4.

I like my room, coz the window is big enaf to see wat happened in Colum Road, which is always a busy road with many ppl walking on it. However, the window is small enaf to prevent ppl to c the whole room of mine, so i can hide in a corner if i wanna have some private moment. =P

I like the desk. It is long enaf for me to create a workstation which consists of my laptop, speakers, a table lamp and also a place for me to write n read. All my soft toys were put on the other end of the table. They were like my study partners. Keeping me motivated when i was down n stressed.

I like my bed, even it is not v big. But it is big enaf to let me slp on it comfortably.

I like my mirror. And some of my housemates and frens oso like it coz the images shown are thinner than the actual person. haha~~~

I like my noticeboard. Especially the calendar. I like to conteng it, so do my frens.


I m leaving here 2mr. And i know, i m gonna to miss the Colum9, the Columates and the room 4 so so much~~

Till we meet again, Cardiff!

=)

Just feel like writing down my current feeling, so tat i can remember it forever.

I just had a heart-to-heart talk with my papa. Learnt a lot thru this conversation. And i m glad that now we understand each other more. Or mayb i shall say now i understand him more coz he never fails to understand me since i was born.

I m v touched coz he can remember things that happened on me last time, which i already forgot.

Papa said, 'If you think you are right, even if i say 'no', you don't have to
listen to me, just do the way you like, as long as you don't go against the
law.'

I m v fortunate to have him as my papa.

I love my family! =)

1 week to go...

Today is Saturday.

I woke up at about half eight this morning. The first thing i did was to open my window so I could take in a few deep breaths. While i was doing this, sth caught my eye:

A car was parked at the oppostite road shoulder. A father was playing with his young child. That was such a very heartwarming moment!

When i was in Msia last time, I would usually wake up early during the weekends and drove my mum to the market, or I would have an early-morning Weekend bfast with my family. These used to be my routine activity. And now, I am looking forward to having more weekends with my family during my summer hol.

Oh well, I think i shudnt dwell too long in dreaming about this and shall start my revision for the exams which start on Monday.

Just 1 more week to go (home)...

For myself

You can be valuable, but you can't be essential.

You can be important, but you can't be indispensable.

You can be one of the best, but you can't be the best.

It's time to make a start again...

I just had a good afternoon nap and I am feeling much refreshed now. It's just like you had a hot bath after a long working day in the winter. Syok~

Well, it has been a while since i last blogged about sth which is nice to read, good to remember and worth to learn. Hopefully after the exams, i will be able to write sth which contains more substance.

I guess it's time for me to start everything again after having a long soul-searching period. And I shall start working hard for my Year 2 final exams NOW!

I must do my best! At least i must TRY to do it.

=)

NEVER LOOK BACK
NEVER LOOK DOWN
AND NEVER LET GO

Lovesong

Sigh~

Last time, I knew this day would come sooner or later. However, I never thought it would arrive this soon.

I hate it! I hate it! And i know i just hate it!

Please bear with me. I really don't know how to get over with this foul mood of mine. I just feel like throwing a million stones into the sea n hope i will feel better after doing that. But, will i?

Just let me shout here: ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I m fine. I m fine. And I know i will b fine!

Life can give me a hundred reasons to cry. So i must be able to give myself a thousand reasons to smile. Right?

Oh well, I guess i m better now. Exams are drawing nearer n nearer. No time to b upset now.

Sadness, please leave me alone k?!!!

Before, during and after the exams...

Fright, fight then flight.

Stress, tests then rest.

Prepare, perform and plane (since i m goin back by an airplane). - This one is contributed by a friend. =)

HOMEsick

Leaving...

In less than two weeks' time, i will b moving out from Colum9.

Well, i know i definitely will b meeting the Columates when i come back to Cardiff after the summer break. I also know that most of them will b staying near to my hostel in the new academic year. However, I know i m gonna miss them and the time we spent together here.

I really enjoyed staying in Colum9. And i will always remember the time i spent with my fellow Columates.

Untitled

Sometimes, when i cant describe my feelings in words, I can just discover
certain songs which can express my feelings...

That's why, when i cant
blog, i will just post some songs here...

An unusual start of the day

6am, I woke up by a severe stomachache.

I experienced a throbbing pain in my upper abdomen (epigastric) region, which then became more intense and spreaded through the whole tummy area. As the pain becoming more and more unbearable, I struggled out of bed and walked to the toilet. I visited the washroom for a few times b4 the pain was eased.

I am ok now, dun worry.

Quite homesick now, especially after this 'traumatic' event.

Oh, johor bahru~~~I miss u!

Simplicity Vs Complexity

Just now I was discussing with a friend whether it is better to have a simple or complex mind. I said i prefer to have a simple mind because it is just so tiring when ur mind keeps on pondering on an issue without giving you a break when u actually need one.

Actually, i think a flexible mind would be more ideal.

When i need to think, i hope my brain will be able to be a good analyser:

When i need to rest, i hope it will be a good dreamer who leads me to many episodes of sweet dream.

Most importantly, I hope it can b a happy brain that keeps me happy all the time!

CountDOWN...

Recently I was quite down, and those who noticed this had been giving me advices like 'don't think so much' and 'don't think too hard'.

I did try, but it din't work that well.

So I made a modification on their guidance. Instead of suppressing my 'super-active' brain energy, I channelled it into my revision. (Exams are coming soon, I cannot just sit around, telling the whole world tat i m down, and do nth for exam preparation.)

Brain-reformation should take place during my leisure time, eg. summer break.

If you can't get the pain away from you, just try to live with it.

Let the music heals my soul...

While listening to my fav music (Cannon in D major), I m writing this entry.

I have been quite depressed in these few days.
Maybe i know y, mayb i dun.

While i was on my way back fr the hospital attachment today, my fren asked me if i was ok anot. I was quite surprised that she actually asked me this question. She saw my surprised look so she explained to me that she could sense that i din look quite ok recently.

Yup, she was right.

Mayb my depressed look was too obvious d.

sigh~

How are you today?

"Heyya, how are you today?" This is a typical opening that people always use to initiate a conversation.

Most of the time, we will get a response like this:

" I am fine. Thank you. How do you do today?"

Ya, this is the usual answer i get when i ask ppl how do they do.

Occasionally, I will get negative answers fr them. At the worst scenario, they will tell me "Life sucks!!!"


I guess if u ask me how's my life now, you might get the 'worst response' fr me.

However, I dun think i will tell this to anybody.

Coz i dun like the word 'sucks'.

A quick update

To be honest, I cant remember exactly when was the last time i put up an update about my life, because it was so long ago!

I had my last lecture of the year on the last day of the previous term. So, there wun b any lectures during this term. Hooray~~ but wait a minute... my timetable isn't as 'empty' as what you and I think because the lecture slots are now being occupied by hospital attachments! omg.. I started to miss the lectures already~~ sigh~~

Last week, I had just done my 1-week nursing attachments. It was really a challenging week for me as i had to wake up at 530am and did an 8-hr attachment everyday starting at 715am. Due to tiredness, I fell sick and the illness lasted the whole week. Looks like i will have to do more exercise to boost up my body's immune system. =P

Finally i m having a brief pause after another hectic week of this term. Tat's y i hav the time to blog now. =P I will need to find more time for recharge my energy so I can prepare myself well for the upcoming 2-week clinical attachment and final exams.

=)

Winners are always winners

"Winners are always winners and the mentality is inside. The future is more important than the past, as it is when we win, but when we lose, we have even more reason to say it strongly. And we look forward to the future." - Jose Mourinho (Chelsea FC's manager)

p.s. I am not a Chelsea FC's supporter but I think it is a very motivating quotation from Mr. Mourinho.

Sodagreen

No pain, no gain

Without bad, there would be no good.
Without difficult, there would be no easy.

Hence, without exams, there would be no SUMMER HOLIDAYS.

Kambate~~~

Don't Write Me Off

A happy cloud

A random scribble

"Buck up, WK!"

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

WK's comment: A cool song which is worth listening to.

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door


But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough


Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change


There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough


And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay



And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough


Click here to listen to the song.

New feature!

I just embedded some songs at the sidebar, u may listen to them while u reading my blog entries.

=)

Sth from the X-Files

"Life is like a box of chocolate.
Cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that nobody ever asks for.
Un - returnable because all you get back is another box of chocolate.
So you’re stuck with this un - definable whipped mint crap that you mindlessly wolf down till there’s nothing left to eat.
Sure once in a while there’s a peanut butter cup, or an English toffee, but they’re gone too fast and taste is fleeting.
So you end up with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth shattering nuts. And if you’re desperate enough to eat those all you’re left with is an empty box filled with useless brown paper wrappers."

My Secondary School - MSAB (EC)

http://ms.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maktab_Sultan_Abu_Bakar

http://www.ecesa.com.my/msab.html

Campus massacre in Virginia Polytech

This incidence happened few days ago and 3o ++ lives were taken.
I cant really comment much as i dunnoe how the gunman felt when he shot his victims. He must be put under a chronic stressful period for quite long, otherwise he wudnt have done such a silly action just to 'release his hatred'.

"Love each other or perish." I saw this sentence in a book tat i read in Dec last year. Will thing change if the gunman has the chance to read this book?

Hm.... perhaps.

Sleepless nite

Cant seem to slp ler tonight...
Still not feeling slpy even it is already 1am (my usual slping time is by 12am 1)...

Din really do a proper revision 2day oso...

WASTED 1 whole day already~~

NVM lar... 2mr muz be double hardworking!!!!

Sth that I did last nite

Last nite I had a conversation with 2 housemates in the kitchen. We talked about dreams that we had b4. I told them that it had been a long time since I last had a dream which i could remember after i woke up (about 3 mths ago i think).

Surprisingly, I had a dream last nite. However, it was a bad 1. And the 1st thing i woke up this morning was to call back home n checked if every1 was ok.

I must really live my life without any regrets, coz i can never predict wat will happen next. I dun c this as a pessimistic thought. I think it is better for me to think like this everyday so i will live my life to the fullest.

It is good to hav dreams sometimes coz i might learn sth meaningful from them.

Ok lar...time to slp d... ZzZzZz... Sweet dreams every1 (yeah i know there might b ppl who dun 1 2 dream..then i wish u all happy slp-ing la)!! =P

Foolish Games - Jewel

Happy bday, Papa

Dear Papa,

Even i know u might not discover this blog of ur eldest son, but it is ok. I still wanna wish u happy bday here.

If there's an award for the World's Greatest Dad, i will definitely nominate u. Mayb u nvr know tat i wud oso wanna b a great papa next time but jz to let u know tat i think i can nvr b as great as u (Nvm then i aim for the World's 2nd Greatest Dad award lar.)

Thanks for being a great father! I shall b a good son of urs then!

=)

Paiseh...

Paiseh ar, my frens... recently my mood not v good...or mayb i m jz a lousy fren who doesnt know how to communicate with you all... tat's y i treated u all v coldly...

Aih~~~ Actually i dun really like to be like this. However the lousy mood tat i m having now seems to turn my life upside down already.

(Collapsed~)

Q n A session with my bro

My bro posted the following sentences in his blog:

if you comment on this post,
1. i'll respond with something random about you.
2. i'll challenge you to try something.
3. i'll pick a colour that i associate with you.
4. i'll tell you something i like about you.
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. i'll ask you something i've always wanted to ask you.


So i posted a comment n he replied as follows:

1. kor (means "brother")
2. try blogging in welsh! (haha... this is really challenging!!)
3. red (hm... y ar?)
4. the fact that you are my kor ( :) )
5. in your sjam uniform. (wah... i miss my st john uniform!!!)
6. monkey and dont ask me why haha (arrghhh~~~~)
7. have u ever thot of not being the eldest son in the family? (hm...no wor...i think it is niz to be able to take k of my siblings. Have you ever thought of being the eldest child in the family then? )

Bless the broken road

RASCAL FLATTS

Bless The Broken Road


I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

Fixing myself...

I just got a friendster msg from a fren whom i played bball with during my 2 yrs in Sunway. In his msg, he wrote a sentence which i think is worth to jot it down here:

"When nth turns out as planned, just take it easy n c how it goes."

This reminds me of a song which was recommended by a fren.

Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you too in love to let it go

If you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

I m now fixing myself...

Some random feelings

I feel like driving on the highway at the speed of 110 km/h.

I feel like driving at night, with the car windows all winded down, and listen to my favourite songs.

I feel like enjoying a leisurely stroll at the beach and listening to the sound of waves.

I feel like flying a kite alone at a big open area.

I feel like having a good slp and waking up the next morning with a big cheerful smile.

If only i can do all these now....

A deep blue triangle, am I?

I woke up quite early this morning. After having my breakfast, I did a random online personality test in the Internet. The test was a simple one, all i did was just to pick a shape and colour that i thought best described me. So I chose triangle and deep blue. And the result i got was:



"You enjoy planning and achieving results, but often have hidden depths and surprises. The triangle is the ultimate symbol of leadership. You are often focused on the long term rather than the day-to-day details, which means you can tend to be egostical and should try to avoid sweeping others aside in your drive to succeed."



Am i a person like this?



Wat do u think ler?

:)

no matter how many clouds get in the way, be like the sun. Keep on shining~! (Thank u!!)

:)

Thanks!

Something from the lecture slides...

Yesterday i attended a lecture in the morning and the lecturer put up an interesting sentence in his last slide:

'Life is a fatal sexually transmitted disease.'

Watch out!

Watch your thoughts; they generate your words.
Watch your words; they guide your actions.
Watch your actions; they become your habits.
Watch your habits; they shape your characteristic.
Watch your characteristic; it determines your destiny.

The UHW Week

This week is the 22nd academic week of my Year 2 course. Just like the previous academic weeks that I had, it is quite typical in a sense that the duration of of lectures is still long, on average the 1st lecture will start at 9am and the last lecture will finish at 4pm. However, this week is rather 'atypical' compared to the usual days because I will spend 80% of the week in the Medical School which is in the University Hospital of Wales (UHW) - approx 30 mins walking distance fr my house - rather than the School of Biosciences which is just 5 min walk fr my house. It is a good opportunity for me to at least do some 'vigorous' exercise by having some brisk walk to n fro, despite the fact that the journey could be tiring after long lecture hours.

While waiting for the next lecture, i decided to come to the computer lab and to blog about some thoughts that i had during the lecture tat i had just b4 this. It was actually a lecture on abnormal growth of children followed by a clinical demonstration where a patient came to the lecture theatre and shared a lil bit info about her clinical conditions. Personally i think it is v good to have such an opportunity to see a real life example of the things that i learnt in the lecture because it helps to reinforce the learning. And to be honest, I really enjoyed most of clinical demonstrations that i attended b4.

If i dont remember wrongly, i think a lecturer once said that patients are also our 'lecturers' in the medical course. The medical students will always learn valuable information from them which cant be found in the textbooks. Indeed, i dun just learn about their clinical conditions but i am also highly motivated by their fighting spirit in dealing with their illnesses. And it is because of this i decided to be stronger whenever i encountered a prob in my life, trying to stay as optimistic as possible even everything just seem so wrong sometimes. There is always a silverlining behind the cloud, isnt it?

:)

Photos

Encouragement...

I was quite down for the whole evening, until i saw this sentence:

"Smile that things have happened, not that they have gone."

Accepting a bad outcome is one challenge while adjusting one's life back to normal after the acceptance is another challenge.

Isn't it hard?

I shall try harder then.

Roath Park

Went to Roath Park yesterday right after my morning lectures. It was the 1st time for me to leave my footprints on its ground since the day i reached Cardiff. It is the best park that i have ever visited since 1st day i study in UK. It is a must-visit place in Spring if you are in Cardiff at this time. =)




So, let me just post some of the pics tat i took in the park. (NB: the quality of the images might be a bit low as i was using my hp's camera to snap them, the resolution of the cam is not as good as that of a camera. I wished i had my camera with me at that time! haha~)

Reflection

As I was writing this entry, my Windows Media Player was playing just one mp3 which is one of my favourite music - Canon in D. I like to listen to it whenever i want to do some reflection or feeling unhappy or when i fail to slp. This piece of music is just like a loyal companion of mine who always be with me during the most difficult time in my life.




If you want, you might wanna play this music in ur computer or laptop while u reading this entry. Hehe~~~





I had faced some challenge over the past few mths. Some of them were quite difficult to be tackled with while the rest were quite easy to be handled. Usually, whenever i encountered a prob, i would try to rationalise it and find the solution on my own. It was not that i wanna keep everything within myself but i just wanna be a lil more independent.





Occasionally, when the burden of the prob was so great for me to bear with, I would tell one or two frens who are really close to me. The reason being this was because I wanted to have someone, who really understand me, to listen to my prob and if possible, try to give me some opinions and more importantly, the moral support. I m not sure what kind of characteristics that i have been potrayed to ppl, whether i m strong or weak. The point that i wanna make here is regardless how strong the person is, moral support that is given by frens during stressful period is really helpful for him or her to be able to stay even stronger.





However, not all the time you can get the support that you want. All of us will have different prob at certain time in our life. Sometimes when I really needed support fr my frens but at tat time they were oso at the trough of their lives, so as you can imagine, I would need to generate the moral support on my own in order for me to keep moving on. Definitely this could be done but it was really a big test for me.





Sometimes when i was in bad mood, frens around me might be offended by my 'near-to-emotionless" state. I m truly sorry about this. I actually felt extra hurt when i saw frens being hurt because of my mood. Well, i think i must learn how to ctrl my emotion so that i wun hurt anybody.





So, i must now look at the bright side of my life and brace myself for more upcoming challenge in my life. This is challenging but i m sure it can be done!




Spring is coming!!! That means there will be more sunny days and let's look at the sunny side of life!!! :)

Weekend at Cardiff Bay

Just went to Cardiff Bay last weekend. As usual, i hav posted some of the pics taken at there.